A friend of mine was asking whether or not he made the right decision in taking his job, because he found himself wishing there was more to do. He felt bored everyday trying to keep himself busy, and then lonely when we went home at night. I told him that in order to figure out if he needs a change, he needs to ask himself one simple question,

“What do you want?”

After finding out that his position at work was under transition, I told him he needs to wait for the change and give it a chance before he decides to throw it all away and pursue something better. Everything deserves a fair chance. I then proceeded by telling him that if he still feels the same way after the change, he needs to yet again ask himself that one, very important question.

He then asked me what my plans in life were. This is how I responded:

“Finish up the next couple of years here [at the University]. Take the MCAT. Go to med school (And try to balance a family while being poor at this hard time). Become neurologist or various doctor. Join the hospital’s clinical ethics board. Do research on near-death experiences and spiritual associations with the brain as well as brain diseases such as Alzheimer’s. Write books about it. One day write a really deep fictional novel that might be banned by libraries. Challenge controversy. Influence world views about anything and everything, making as much as a substantial difference as one person possibly can. Fulfill my bucket list which suggests I: try chocolate beer, get married, have kids, adopt from Africa and China, see the world, reach a 50th anniversary, go skinny-dipping, go hang-gliding, read as many pretentious books as I can, spend a ridiculous amount of money on something I don’t need, try new foods, obtain a feminine six pack, befriend a tiger, spend a lot of time in the sun, inspire someone, save a life, be a role model, love as much as I can, learn as much as I can, and become as strong of a person as I have capacity for. All while, regardless of trying circumstances, trying my best to enjoy life along the way.”

After expressing his appreciation for my plans he told me, “If you want to go somewhere, if you want to be somebody, you better wake up and pay attention!”.

He’s right.

This is all I’ve ever wanted. A life rich in all aspects. I don’t talk about it a lot, and not a lot of people want to know, but if you ask me I’ll share my passion with you. People will try to take your dream away. and you have to protect it. They’ll tear it down because they think you won’t get there, because they’re just upset they never made it. After being faced with trials that made me question my life as I was being kicked while I was down, on my knees, begging for air, due to my own mistakes and lack of attention, I decided right then and there that there was nothing else I wanted in life more than making myself proud and to prove to myself that I was more than the piece of dirt I had been treated like due to my bad decisions. I’m more alive and awake now than I have ever been, and I say that without a stutter and with eyes wide open because I speak the truth. At this point there is nothing that is going to stop me from achieving my goals, even if they do change, because I already know what I’m capable of. When everyone around you sees a positive change, that’s when you know you’re on the right track. When people are telling you that what you’re doing is working, don’t give up. But when they can’t see it, or things are rough, you have to work twice three times 50 times as hard to prove yourself. You have to tell yourself that you’re worth it, and not give yourself a reason to doubt it. I’m not giving up. I’m going hard. I’m going to win.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT THIS

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Thinking thoughts of what could have been and wondering how things could be so different. Not even better— probably worse— but curiosity nonetheless is what cuts like a knife. Not knowing. The unknown. The reason we fear, regret, and sulk in shades of blue and uncomfortable greens. We make a habit out of analyzing choices and resent life for giving us only one option. We do that by fearing, regretting, and sulking. If only I could stop resisting out of fear.

If only I could stop wanting more.

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If you try to make your boyfriend/girlfriend jealous on purpose, it’s time to grow up. No one likes to play those games.

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Love this.

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